Among the many issues, we have to deal with is the constant fatigue. No wonder it gets more difficult to carry out the normal day to day activities, like updating content on the blog for instance. Anyway, we still do our best to do what we have to do and prove the disease wrong. There are days when I wake up and feel strong but sometimes it feels like you’ve been up all night. Sometimes it is difficult to understand where all the fatigue is coming from despite being in bed all day.
Let’s look at it this way, cancer and chemotherapy are an interesting combination to face against our body cells. Cancer cells eat away the body’s useful cells while chemotherapy attempts to burn away those cancer cells and ends up burning a bit of the remaining useful body cells. Because of all that we are forced to reduce on our normal activities at least until we heal and our bodies regenerate new cells to function normally again. So you see, they say it gets worse before it gets better.
Staying in bed for long hours sounds like a fun activity but the bed sores are not something to look forward to because they leave the body protesting. It’s like spending hours in one position. Combining the fatigue from chemo with the moments of sickness and throwing up only drains up the body faster. When you lose more than you are gaining, it is most likely that you get fatigued.
Well, I know what you are wondering. How do you make it easier to manage? Apparently, there is no fixed way to manage it and at this point, knowledge of oneself comes in very handy. The way I see, everyone has that one thing that they love so much that it gets the reenergized just at the sound or sight of it. At times we do things because we can do them but at times we do them because we want to do them. When I wake up and I am too fatigued to get up from bed, I think of that one thing that I would go to extremes for and get started on it. For instance, I understand the magnitude of this blog to the readers and especially cancer victims. The thought of giving somebody other than myself the strength to carry on one more day just melts my heart and no matter how bad things get on my end (which sometimes happens) I know that I have more than just myself to encourage. In the process of writing the blogs, I often find myself motivating me too.
In short, don’t let what you are feeling take control of your life. We all have that divine purpose we are called to accomplish and the grace for it exceeds all other graces in our lives. So take advantage of that grace and use it to generate the strength to carry you through that moment of fatigue. It works, I promise.
Pain to Purpose
When I decided to establish this blog, I began to view things from a different eye. All the pain and struggles I have faced during my time with cancer have been like a training ground for me. The pains we face in life are actually not just meant to inflict pain for the sake of it. They are more like opposing energies that are meant to propel us into the purpose for which we were brought to this earth. The term ‘beauty for ashes’ is just as literal as it sounds. We have that power to use the pain we encounter to generate new energy for accomplishing our purpose.
The day I created this blog was the day I got so tired of harboring all the energy being generated by this pain I faced. On that day, I got a place to vent it out and allowed myself to be used as a vessel to transform negative energy to positive energy. What I am trying to say is that we have that choice and that authority to decide what to give produce even though we constantly face the tough side of life. Take some time to sit down and think about how to transform that pain you face into purpose. Don’t let it build up within you because the only way to manage it is to get rid of some of the pain you hold so you can give room for transformation into something beautiful. Look at the flower, as long as the bud remains closed, the flower cannot bloom and the beauty cannot be seen. Bloom and let the beauty resulting from that pain be seen. Nobody can ignore the vibrancy of a beautiful flower. When we love a flower we water it daily so let your flower bloom so people can spot it and water it. It gets better!